金风玉露

Lou Reed
Transformer (1972)
Perfect Day

Just a perfect day,
Drink Sangria in the park,
And then later, when it gets dark,
We go home.
Just a perfect day,
Feed animals in the zoo
Then later, a movie, too,
And then home.

Oh it's such a perfect day,
I'm glad I spent it with you.
Oh such a perfect day,
You just keep me hanging on,
You just keep me hanging on.

Just a perfect day,
Problems all left alone,
Weekenders on our own.
It's such fun.
Just a perfect day,
You made me forget myself.
I thought I was someone else,
Someone good.

Oh it's such a perfect day,
I'm glad I spent it with you.
Oh such a perfect day,
You just keep me hanging on,
You just keep me hanging on.

You're going to reap just what you sow,
You're going to reap just what you sow,
You're going to reap just what you sow,
You're going to reap just what you sow...

最初听这支歌是在大陆版欲望都市《好想好想谈恋爱》里。在谭艾琳与伍岳峰在感情漩涡里起起伏伏的每个段落里，都会有这支歌响起。而这支歌我最喜欢的就是起首的部分。都市人那种身不由已的沉沦、霓虹下和人群中的孤独落寞，都在起始的旋律里。

后来看trainspotting,才知道这支歌出自这里。片子里充满了吸毒、性爱、暴力、无聊、背叛，是一群另类青年在吸毒与戒毒之间挣扎的生活。那是一种大多数人无法触及的边缘生活，但却触动了许多敏感的心灵。一直觉得，人们虽然选择了不同的生活方式，但不同的生活方式只是表面，心灵涌动的暗流在冰封河流下默默相交，不同生活方式的人会在别人的生活里找到另一种内心的自己。大多数人只能选择一种生活，而且极有可能是极普通的一种生活，但这不妨碍人们从别人的生活里找到自己对生活和人足够敏感，足够Trainspotting这类另类人群题材的片子很容易拍成矫情的噱头。西洋景看得太多了，与自己完全无关的东西只能引起一时的好奇心，很难让人动心。好东西应该是让人在别人的生活里看到自己的，猜火车做到了。那是一些生活在边缘处的年轻人，那些青春骚动、对人生的追问和怀疑、对一成不变的生活的背叛……那些都是很多人心里都曾有过的，虽然也许只是一瞬间的冲动，但在那一瞬间，你就是Mark。

有个网友的评论蛮到位，他的意思是说，mark和朋友们一起在吸毒和戒毒之间的生活是对日常生活的逃离，片里最后mark对朋友的背叛意味着对往日生活的背叛，也就是对日常生活的回归。不过我并不认为这是导演向日常的回归，我觉得这是一种讽刺，巨有喜剧效果，但让人辛酸。看，生活就是这样，无论走出多么远，日常生活就像一条富有魔力的磁道，带着它的平庸，它的平淡，令人生厌，令人温暖。归根到底，谁又能真的逃离生活？忽然有一天，你将发现，所有的背叛其实都没有对象时，人生的荒谬才令人无言。

Choose life. Choose a job. Choose a career. Choose a family, Choose a fucking big television, Choose washing machines, cars, compact disc players, and electrical tin openers. Choose good health, low cholesterol and dental insurance. Choose fixed-interest mortgage repayments. Choose a starter home. Choose your friends. Choose leisure wear and matching luggage. Choose a three piece suite on hire purchase in a range of fucking fabrics. Choose DIY and wondering who you are on a Sunday morning. Choose sitting on that couch watching mind-numbing sprit-crushing game shows, stuffing fucking junk food into your mouth. Choose rotting away at the end of it all, pishing you last in a miserable home, nothing more than an embarrassment to the selfish, fucked-up brats you have spawned to replace yourself. Choose your future. Choose life. I chose not to choose life: I chose something else. And the reasons? There are no reasons. Who need reasons when you've got heroin?

Trainspotting是苏格兰一种古老的游戏，无聊的老人和孩子，站在灰铁站牌下猜下一趟车到来的时间和车次，以打法无聊的时间和生命。